Day Six

Today was a little rough. I woke up with a splitting headache. A storm front was moving in and there I was with the same old migraine. All the wind in my sails that I have had the past few days, left in a second. I was grumpy, tired, and REALLY wanted a cheeseburger! Not only a cheeseburger, but a giant milkshake and chips and dip. Even though my pain seems less, I am still feeling tired. I wanted this morning to be the morning I woke up and felt boundless energy. I wanted to put an 8 hour day into cleaning my house and doing all those organization projects I have. Instead, I woke up feeling more like the same old thing.  I just wanted to bury my head under my covers and cry. What had I gotten myself into? Was this really going to make things better? In that moment I felt God speak to my heart. He said, Daughter, you want this change and you are doing the right thing. With every wound, there is a time before it heals. If you do to much, to quickly, the wound rips open again. Then you have to go through the whole healing process again. If I allow to much to quickly, you can't properly heal. So true, right?  I have to heal and grow slowly for this to be a success. When you have surgery, the incision on the outside can be healed but on the inside there is still pain. It takes a long time for all the nerves and muscle to go back to what it once was. If you aren't careful you can make what is already healed damaged again. I have a lot of things that need to heal, spiritually, emotionally, and physically.It will take time. I can't let a little setback ruin the whole plan.  If I let that happen I would be saying to God that the promise in His word to make all things new is not true. 


One of my favorite songs is by The Crabb Family. It is called Take You Through The Fire. The chorus says, 'He never promised that the cross would not get heavy, that the hill would not be hard to climb. He never offered, a victory without fighting, but He said help would always come in time. Just remember when your standing in the valley of decision and the adversary says give in,. Just hold on, our Lord will show up, and He will take you through the fire again.


I have to keep remembering that my life is worth fighting for and God thinks so to. He isn't going to leave me stranded in the middle of this battle but sometimes you have to work through the hard parts and be refined in the fire to be victorious.


'I will bring that group through the fire and make them pure. I will refine them like silver and purify them like gold. They will call on my name, and I will answer them. I will say, 'These are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.'  Zechariah 13:9